Class takeaway 11/25

Im really interested in seeing everyones fear projects. It seems like the ones that have gone so far are very thoughtful and they really dove in deep to analyze what makes them afraid. Im even kind of excited to show mine.

Fear factor

1. My fear is an anxiety. It is an anxiety about driving new or unfamiliar places. Also i have an anxiety about my creative projects. I never feel they are done or dont look as good as they should.
2. I notice fear in my life semi regularly especially the creative kind but more recently the unfamiliar places kind. Especially with my school projects do i notice the creative fear.
3. My fears keep me from doing many things especially trying new things or going new places. The creative one keeps me from accepting my work as genuine and my criticisms put a shadow over what ive created.
4. Fear is a learned experience. I hate to be lost, the uncertainty of finding your way back, the tightness in your chest that comes with it, even if its a street or two over or a missed turn. The creative fear, im not sure about a use for that one, it keeps me on my toes creatively but lately its just a nuisance.
5.  It doesnt affect my life too bad unless i need to drive somewhere. The other one hinders my creative mojo. I feel like what i make isnt good enough
6. My fear takes the form of a line drawing i created. Its very maze like and tight. Symbolizing how i feel and what i see in my minds eye. It also kind of tackles my other fear because i disnt care how it looked it just was how it was.
7. It makes me conceptualize how i view my anxiety. I mean in this day and age its kind of hard to be lost with our phones being gps and all. But drawing out how i feel kind of helps release the tension.

Who are you and what are you doing here?

For this assignment, i really had to work hard to think about what really defines who i am and why am i here, i decided on the one side of my contour drawing with the drawing itself to be my "who am i?" side. I decided to take an obvious approach and write pronouns like me, myself, i, identity, flattop, nerd, pessimist, conundrum, caring, and intelligent. I couldn't really think of anything that defines who i am very clearly and it kind of ended up looking like the tags in a dating website profile... On the other side, i dedicated it to the "what am i here for?" section. I filled that page with all sorts of words that define my interests, things i love, duties, family, and my goals in life. This side i had much more fun with as i could really let loose because i know what i like and what i need in my life, where i want to go in life and the journey i want to have getting there. I know things won't go according to plan every step of the way, but that's part of the journey too. This experiment helped me delve deep into how i function on an emotional and personal level and helped me grasp better how to answer the questions "who are you?" and "what are you doing with your life?".

Class Takeaway 9

Well More life got in the way this week and I was unable to attend movie day, though I was able to do things for another class which have been driving me insane for a while now. I feel bad missing so much of this class but the time really does come in useful for other projects that are coming at me hard and fast...